“He was trying to guilt trip people into activism…”
“I find this upsetting. I was accused of this. It affected me so badly emotionally and physically that I had to drop out of the local group completely. I am alone now.”
To “guilt trip” is a meme. Like all memes it came into existence at some moment in time. Why has it spread? What is its purpose? Who benefits from these 2 words put together? Why would an activist ever try to ‘guilt-trip ‘anyone? It makes no sense. Guilt-tripping would be a way to divide and drive away the people whom we are so desperate for help from. It seems it is a meme that works to divide and weaken communities.
I found out yesterday that people did not like to read things from me like, “I got up at 4am and finished this blog post by 5am” – That, to me was/is a fact… It says something about my mood… lack of stability… need for stability… I am certainly not asking others to get up at 4am and become emotionally unstable.
“Please never do so again. If someone is saying they are working hard and looking for help, even if it is making others feel bad, please recognise that is mainly the problem for the person whose Anxiety drives him/her into the Busy quadrant.”
Others may be able to move more quickly from Anxiety to a Down-mood or a Calm-mood or be able to remain Anxious. Your typical activist has lost this ability and will rarely feel any Calm/Calmness until after a period of being Busy/very-Active.
Some people do not know, or cannot remember how to move from Anxious to Calm without first being Busy….
“It can be hard to connect with activists. They are so often close to exhaustion from such long periods of being Busy and very little Calm in their lives.”
Every activist seems to be looking for help. I am reminded of Billy Joel’s
There’s 2 minutes of instrumental introduction. The second verse contains,
“Give a moment or two to the angry young man… With his foot in his mouth and his heart in his hand… He’s been stabbed in the back, he’s been misunderstood… It’s a comfort to know his intentions are good… And he sits in a room with a lock on the door… With his maps and his medals laid out on the floor….”
We had an epidemic of poor nutrition, high blood sugar and over use of pharmaceuticals. People around the world were waking up to that and grouping together to help each other have better health. This movement towards better health was stopped in its tracks early in 2020 by illegal ‘lockdowns’, where healthy people were told to stay in their homes. This deprived many of sunlight and exercise. Exercise? Yes, for example Park Run was stopped. For many nutrition worsened as they shopped less often and had less fresh food. Governments pretended that nutrition did not matter and politicians laughed at the fact that vitamins C and D can be used to prevent colds and ‘flu.
So a pLLandemic was created. Not by a virus from Wuhan but by governments and mainstream media.
Now, there is a far greater threat to our health and that comes in the form of police brutality and what may follow on from that.
Above is a still image of Constable NE2546 just after he has kicked a member of the public in the head for fun. Seriously, this monster has been caught on camera committing a serious crime. I intend to report this crime, even though doing so may put my life at risk if other police come for me for telling the truth.
Police brutality is causing mental challenges that can only be resolved by eliminating police brutality.
Around the world millions of people are living in fear of the police. Our regular friendly ‘bobby-on-the-beat’ is fine and still how most in Britain like to think of our police force. The trouble is our police may no longer be our police as so many of them no longer seem interested in our welfare.
These are not protestors the police are pushing around. These are New Year Revellers. Most are sober law-abiding citizens including children and pensioners.
What has this to do with bipolar disorder?
Bipolar is essentially a reaction to anxiety – an escape from anxiety into depression or mania. Into a Down mood or a Busy mood.
When we witness injustice / atrocities we become enraged. That is a mood of higher energy and negativity. To get out of that mood we can either stay negative, decide there is nothing anyone can do and be Down, else we can be positive, decide we can do something and get Busy, doing that something.
Down-Mood or Busy-Mood.
Busy… Typing this blog-post, then sharing it widely, then finding out how to report a crime, then reporting it and perhaps asking others to report it.
By taking action my mood does not have to stay at an extreme. I can then be calm and sleep. Yes, I will wake fearful of a knock on the door. Maybe Constable NE2546 will come after me. Yes, maybe it’ll be best if many people report this crime as he won’t be able to kick every one of us.
It needs to be done to stop to what is happening. It is too like black and white film I have seen of how the NAZI took over in Germany about 90 years ago.
If you have not watched the video yet, please do so and see if you then have the same feeling of outrage I have been experiencing and maybe you will join those of us who oppose tyranny. Please.
I am okay with people saying that rapid-extreme shifts in mood after seeing terrible things happen is a ‘bipolar thing’ but not that it is a disorder. This is normal/healthy. It is the police, here who are being abnormal and such actions are unhealthy.
A few weeks ago, kind of by chance, I met David Icke. He was going to hug me. I shook his hand.
It is not so long since almost everyone in the UK seemed to think Mr Icke had become too weird to pay any attention to. He’d been on prime-time TV saying the royal family were lizards. I have not read enough of his books to know if he believes/believed they are biologically reptiles. Possibly, the point he was making was that many of ‘elites’ behave as if they have no understanding of the emotions most of us experience.
Only today, I have heard two people say that our current Health Secretary is a lizard and I know they are referring only to the way he doesn’t blink when interviewed and seems to relish having ever more power while going along with decisions that cause unnecessary harm.
Putting lizards aside, I have undoubtedly been living with fear. Other people’s fear and my own fear, which at times seems as extreme as fear can be. Much of the time I am fearful of masks. Not that masks are inherently dangerous. It is more because of the blind obedience they represent. It is how wearing masks without questioning why tends to go with things like not wanting to know what is in ‘vaccines’ or why locking down society was allowed when all that is needed is protection and appropriate support for the frail people.
What if I were able to choose not to be afraid of ‘lizards’, masks and everything else?
Well, I think David Icke is making a lot more sense these days and why I was happy to shake his hand.
A friend has asked for my view on the David Icke video below. Well, it makes sense. I cannot say to what extent the mood, feeling or vibrational energy we have changes the world around us. It does however make a lot of sense to me to choose to feel empowered. Doing the opposite of, continuing to feel disempowered and fearful, makes no sense.
How does someone like me; overcome fears and regain enough confidence to feel and act positively? Here is a dull answer if put up against the video below for entertainment value! The most important thing, for me, at this time, seems to be to make a plan for tomorrow and keep doing this day-after-day. Recently my life seems to one of, “Failing to plan and so effectively planning to fail.”
I am inspired. I have made a plan for tomorrow. I am grateful to the friend who forwarded this to me: https://youtu.be/AQKe_Elii1o
Workers at the “Vaccination Centres” have been unaware of where the toxins from the “jabs” end up.
This is, in part, because the animal studies had not been shared prior to the EMERGENCY APPROVAL by the UK government.
The common reaction to seeing these results, released by Freedom of Information is, “I keep hoping someone will prove us wrong.” That is exactly where I am at as I look at this graph again and imagine what the implications could be for girls of 18 down to 12 years old if they are injected with this still experimental chemical cocktail.
With Covid19 wiped out in the UK, now replaced by the milder Delta21 which goes with runny nose and fever, rather than cough and loss of sense of taste and smell, it is time to pause the jabbing so that us ‘bipolar’ scientists can sleep at night!
As I said in my previous post, “…the world could be heading for something even worse than thalidomide.”
This is an invitation to ‘fact-checkers’ (or men-in-black!) to simply give me a bit more data, such as results for the next batch of rats. If by 96 hours the trend was back down, then great, less worry for everyone.
It has to be #SaferToWait
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After sharing the above, a scientist did contact me and asked:
What is the DSPC ingredient that seems to spread everywhere?
Finding out I have been deceived has, in the past, been a massive trigger for changes in my mood. I became aware of some deception when I saw this graph concerning where the lipids in the Pfizer nanoparticles start to travel to after injection. I want the world to know that my moodiness is driven by real world events.
My anxiety worsened when I found the graph seemed to have been deliberately falsified!
In reality the ovaries do not accumulate more of the toxins from the jab than the liver.
I felt I could not settle until I understood some real facts about the animal studies on the mRNA jabs?
I went back to the original report#1, or at least the one online that looks official, with; the company name, authors’ names, references and so on.
I transferred the results to a spreadsheet to sort highest to lowest…
Autopsy Results from Laboratory Rats from Pfizer Study, Japan, Release 1st June 2021
Hours after ‘jab’
0.25
1
2
4
8
24
48
1
Liver
0.74
4.63
11.00
16.50
26.50
19.20
24.30
2
Spleen
0.33
2.47
7.73
10.30
22.10
20.10
23.40
3
Adrenal glands
0.27
1.48
2.72
2.89
6.80
13.80
18.20
4
Ovaries (females)
0.10
1.34
1.64
2.34
3.09
5.24
12.30
5
Bone marrow (femur)
0.48
0.96
1.24
1.24
1.84
2.49
3.77
6
Small intestine
0.03
0.22
0.48
0.88
1.28
1.30
1.47
7
Lymph node
0.05
0.15
0.53
0.49
0.69
0.99
1.37
8
Large intestine
0.01
0.05
0.09
0.29
0.65
1.10
1.34
9
Lung
0.49
1.21
1.83
1.50
1.15
1.04
1.09
10
Lymph (mandibular)
0.06
0.19
0.29
0.41
0.53
0.55
0.73
11
Pituitary gland
0.34
0.65
0.87
0.85
0.41
0.48
0.69
12
Bone (femur)
0.09
0.20
0.27
0.28
0.34
0.34
0.69
13
Pancreas
0.08
0.21
0.41
0.38
0.29
0.36
0.60
14
Heart
0.28
1.03
1.40
0.99
0.79
0.45
0.55
15
Kidneys
0.39
1.16
2.05
0.92
0.59
0.43
0.43
16
Bladder
0.04
0.13
0.15
0.17
0.15
0.25
0.37
17
Salivary glands
0.08
0.19
0.26
0.22
0.14
0.17
0.26
18
Skin
0.01
0.21
0.16
0.15
0.12
0.16
0.25
19
Stomach
0.02
0.07
0.12
0.14
0.27
0.15
0.22
20
Muscle
0.02
0.06
0.08
0.10
0.10
0.10
0.19
21
Adipose tissue
0.06
0.10
0.13
0.13
0.09
0.08
0.18
22
Prostate (males)
0.06
0.09
0.13
0.16
0.15
0.18
0.17
23
Eyes
0.01
0.04
0.05
0.07
0.06
0.09
0.11
24
Spinal cord
0.04
0.10
0.17
0.25
0.11
0.09
0.11
25
Brain
0.05
0.10
0.14
0.12
0.07
0.07
0.07
I can see why those who made the video based on a graph, like the one above, were alarmed. I used the data to create a very precise and I believe clearer graph:
If we simply compare ovaries with prostate (see table) the accumulation of what is essentially a toxin is 72.4 times higher in the ovaries. There are no results reported for rat testicles, although this cannot have been because these were too small or awkward to dissect as the researchers went to the trouble of extracting the miniscule pituitary gland (number 11 in the table) from every rat’s brain.
I do not know why it accumulates in the ovaries. It is however a good reason for me to be working with parents who believe it is safer to wait. ‘SAFER TO WAIT’ has become one of many memes being used in attempts to protect adolescents from potential harm. Perhaps, young people need to made aware of massive pharmaceutical mistakes in the past, such as thalidomide#2
It is about 60 years since the thalidomide disaster. With thalidomide, one country did stand up to ‘big pharma’. That was the USA whose regulators demanded to see withheld data on the laboratory animal birth defects. Only when the company revealed that they knew thalidomide would almost certainly cause children to be born with missing limbs did the rest of the world wake up to big pharma choosing profits ahead of safety. Perhaps, this time, it is up to the UK with its new independence from Europe to stand up and say ‘No’ to poorly tested chemicals/technology being used on our children. Drug companies must not, again, be allowed to profit by withholding information about harms they know about.
The animal studies were not available at the time the government said they wanted to go ahead with mass vaccination. The recent released of information on animals injected with mRNA coated in DSPC have alarmed scientists around the globe, who are increasingly calling out to governments to stop the jabbing of teenagers. The study described here and another one I have examined both go with concerns that the world could be heading for something even worse than thalidomide.
There were no results above 2.0 for 20 out of 25 organs autopsied.
I have hundreds more questions I want to ask of the researchers. I am frustrated and fearful, yet I am not prepared to be like the German laboratory workers who were too afraid to tell the authorities that thalidomide would cause birth defects.
Few medical doctors will have had time to go back to the original data as I have and then consider the implications. I believe the people who administer the ‘jabs’ have been told the ‘lipid’ from the nanoparticles will stay in the injection site. There was never a good reason to believe it would and the above table and graphs show that it certainly does not.
According to ‘fact-checkers’ young women and adolescent girls need not be concerned about mRNA getting into their ovaries because the rats received a dose equivalent to 60,000 times currently being injected into 12 year old girls in USA and Israel.
Yes high doses were administered to the rats to ensure some would get through to tiny organs like the ovaries and even the miniscule rat pituitary gland, to allow measurement.
Considering body weights, I have calculated the amount of the active ingredients injected into the rats would have been about 670 times higher (ug/g), not the ‘fact-checkers’ 60,000. Whichever number is closer to the truth, I suggest that it is not the amount detected but more the upward trend that needs to be understood. The highest mean result, for the ovaries of the rats that were ‘sacrificed’, was 12.3ug/g at 48 hours. This is not a lot of lipid (although this particular lipid is man-made DSPC and certainly not natural) but it does seem to be continuing to accumulate and so extra data points (96 hours maybe and maybe again after 8 days, 16 days, 32 days… maybe) could, help greatly with understanding risks. By 48 hours there had been 7 rounds of rat ‘sacrifices’ so most likely they ran out of rats! (Yes, animal studies are… grim!)
From my own days in pharmaceutical research (not with injections and not with animals ) I know that unexpected results lead to repeating work in greater detail to allow greater understanding and this is one reason why almost every pharmaceutical takes a very long time to bring to market. I have heard this is typically 8 years for a vaccine.
I have not seen the full report. What has been released through a Freedom of Information request has sections missing and some parts seem to be blanked-out/redacted. For me, what is shared raises far more questions than it answers.
To get some idea of how much of the chemicals from the jabs are being excreted, I have examined the lipid ‘percentage of total’ figures provided alongside the ug/g injected.
I thought these would be derived from the same quantity being injected into each mouse. So far as I can tell that did not happen, yet without more information I can only estimate the total amount injected which I have done by taking the amount measured at the injection site after 1 hour (392ug/g) and this being said to be 52.6%.
392*100/52.6 = 749
I currently believe the graph here is a good overview of where the lipids from the injection are going.
I have put, “It does not seem to be excreted quickly” in a caption because there seems almost no change in the total amounts measured all the way from 8 hours to 48 hours.
I believe I have said all that I have felt compelled to say. I would welcome the chance to ask questions of the researchers, such as:
How were the rats behaving after the injections?
Compared with normal?
Exactly when did they sleep during those 48 hours (if at all)?
Exactly when did they eat (if at all) and how much and of what type of food?
What happened to the injected chemicals that did not appear in the measurements?
Were other organs tested, and if not, why not?
How much went into the blood cells?
How were the percentages in the report calculated?
When can you share information related to reproduction?
Why does the toxin accumulate in the ovaries?
When will there be information on actual births from rats injected with these substances prior to / during pregnancy?
How much harm is likely when the toxins are exuded in breast milk?
I have a lot more questions to ask, as the report answers so very little.
Cartoons like this have been shared widely. The message has always seemed clear to me, yet the real world is never bipolar. I would like to hear your thoughts on the grid below…
Slide 1 of 3 – As seen on social media:
Slide 2 of 3 – Perhaps as seen in real world:
Slide 3 of 3 – The Grid…
I would like to hear your thoughts on this new grid that I am sharing.
I am slightly saddened that the Priadel brand of lithium carbonate is to be discontinued in the UK, as that was the only brand I took every evening from 1998 to 2011 (other than a year taking 200mg Priadel with 450mg Camcolit).
Some lithium carbonate tablets have been described as ‘slow-release’ or ‘sustained release’ but what does this mean?
When researching for our handbook for nurses, we found that blood taken from patients at hourly intervals showed a rise in blood lithium in the first few hours after taking the lithium carbonate and then the level falling again. It worked out that when lithium is taken at bedtime the maximum in the person’s blood is likely to occur early in the morning and can already be dropping at the time when a blood sample would normally be taken at the doctor’s surgery the next morning.
This means that the timing of blood tests will, to some extent, influence the result. It also means that a ‘safe’ high reading in blood taken mid-morning is no guarantee that levels were not ‘toxic’ a few hours earlier.
Carbonates tend to dissolve quicker in acid (such as stomach acid) than in water. To get an idea of how much quicker I dropped a 400mg Priadel tablet into a glass of water and a glass containing vinegar. As the photograph above shows the tablet dispersed quickly in water and even quicker in the acidic vinegar.
Are any lithium carbonate tablets really slow-release? I think not, and that I think is why no significance difference was found between Priadel ‘slow-release’ and Camcolit (that at the time of testing was not claiming to be slow-release).
Whether or not all or no lithium carbonate tablets are described as slow release, those who need or choose to continue to use lithium carbonate are likely to be fine when they need to change, from Priadel, to one of the other brands sometime before April 2021.
Here is part of a discussion of this from: The Pharmaceutical Journal “the overall outcome was that Priadel 400mg tablets were “sustained release” but had the same release as Camcolit 400mg plain tablets (the comparator in the Priadel study), Camcolit 400mg was then labelled sustained-release too. It wasn’t, but if the release was identical to the so-called ‘sustained release tablet’,” Stephen Bazire22 AUG 2020
Final photograph: After 3 hours 40 minutes, the lithium carbonate is well dispersed, although seemingly not dissolved, in the water, while fully dissolved in the acidic vinegar.
After about 11 years med-free = no prescription medications at all, I accepted a prescribed antipsychotic drug to help me sleep. I have found that I sleep a little more when I take this, yet each day I am so very tired and doing (what seems to me) to be far too little.
TOXAPREVENT ‘Tim Animation’ – “Animation about the toxins, heavy metals and histamine that affect your digestive tract and skin.”
I have met with a nutritional therapist who has suggested that my troubles may be largely due to excess toxins. If this is so, then I need a way to get these toxins out of my body (and especially out of my brain). Can this be done?
Perhaps the best hope is with a product called ToxaPrevent(R). This film explains about toxins in the body and how ToxaPrevent may do exactly what I need it to do.
The instructions I have are to take both the powder (for detoxing from upper digestive system) and the capsule(s) (for detoxing from lower digestive system) 30 minutes before each meal.
I have just taken first dose of each, so now to cook, eat and see how I feel later.
“If your life were planned for you…” Has it ever seemed to you that everything that happens has been pre-planned? Little bits of deja vue perhaps or you’ve got a good idea about what is about to happen.
I have experienced a lot of this lately. The realisation that there is a far greater power at work than I grew up believing in has been eye-opening.
I believed I was doing good. I believed I was good father for my children, a productive helpful worker at each business I worked for or at.
Looking back now, after the various interactions I have had with friends and relatives, I now question just who I was and what I was achieving. It seems I was less than I wanted to be in both ways.
Let us see what today brings. More ups and downs. More ups than downs perhaps.
Roger Smith (in the UK)
Rethinking Bipolar 